About and beyond

I was not sure about starting a blog cause the first idea came when I just broke up with someone. My first thought was to write about him. And I'm still back and forth on that. For now, I won't cause this should me about me, and only me. At the end, "me" is the only thing I have. I mean, don't mean to be ungrateful: I have great friends, great family, a dream job (or at least the job I wished for a very long time) but, something is missing. Or something was missing. From now on, I will quote Henry Miller everytime I catch myself wandering around:
"Develop interest in life as you see it, in people, in things, literature, music. The world is so rich, simply trobbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. FORGET YOURSELF"

So that's the secret I think and my new motto: FORGET YOURSELF! I've wasted so many time asking questions, wrong question and I'm so tired!. I even sent a message to my ex boyfriend (my only official boyfriend ever) asking him if I was worth it. I was so mad when he replied back; not because he said something wrong, it was because I realized that was a stupid question to ask to beging with. I did thank him for taking the time and write that long message to confort me. Unfortunately it did not work. From now on, I will let the word surprise me, no more expectations!!!!!!

Anyway, with that being said: let me begin by telling you I'm 37 years old, single and with no intentions of changing that status ever again. I'M DONE!!!!!
I was walking my dog Troya last night (Troya is a street dog that truly can tell her Cinderella story, I adopted her 2 years ago and I honestly believe she did save my life in many many ways) and I figure the best way to describe my long history of relationship (or how men see me): Think of me as Jurassic Park: at first glance everything is OOOHHHH AAAAHHH WOOOOW!!! but then, it's screaming, crying and running for your life (I have never dumped anyone in my life, EVER!)
Too pathetic? Think again, I believe at this point I need to have a sense of humor about it.